More old photos...

I have had so much fun putting up the old photos, I decided that I should not stop there...(Though I have to add that when school starts next week, I probably would not have so much time to put up all these entries.. sigh)

Daddy and Mummy have always been very open about their love.. And I also enjoy basking in their love.. hee hee..

That's them now...

This photo shows me and my cousin, Cijay, at the HawPar Villa.

This one, shows us at his house (in case you can't tell, he's the one in black...). He is really capable. Only one year older than me..and have a successful career, drives a Honda Odyssey, has two kids, and lives in a condo...

Sigh..

This is my paternal grandmother, a sweet old lady, but sadly passed on...

Haha. To end on a light note... YOu better don't laugh at this photo.. OR ELSE!!!! *BANG*!

Overwhelming...

Yesterday, I went to school for a staff meeting. It was also when we got to know our classes. FINALLY. It was Thursday, and we would only have a few days to get ready for the class.

I was actually assigned to take my nephew's class. I was initially very happy, but then I also thohght too much into it. I thought: What if, Jo Jo did very well in class, and then parents come and complain that it's becuase I am the teacher? It is unfair to the kid, because he would have worked hard for the good results. Therefore, I went to tell the Principal about it, and in the end I got another P2 class.

Then came the touble of having to get all the materials from the teacher. She was a contract teacher, and I guess I can't really blame her for being out of the situation. Quite a lot of things were lost from the stuff that she has handed over to me, and in the end I had to run all over the school to get the materials that were lost. Sheesh.

During the NIE Induction programme, we watched this skit put up by some teachers, and in the show, the new teacher was thrown lots of stuff the first day that he was in school. Well, the same thing happened to me. Suddenly, everything was just thrown to you, and it was a swim or sink thingee. It was terribly overwhelming, and I really felt like crying there and then. But I know it was of no use. No one could help me if I didn't know what the problem was. So, I took it step by step. I know this is a job where you have to learn on the job. I know I will make mistakes, but I guess we all learn by mistakes... so...

I cross my fingers and wish me luck!!! =)

Heart wrenching...

Today, I went to the photo studio to collect my convocation gown, and also to sign the studio photo package.

Mama was very nice to offer to go with me, because I didn't know where the place was. It sounded like it was some weird place...

When we got there, surprisingly it was a very nice place... and we went through the process of signing the package and paying the deposit smoothly. Then, after the payment, I had to try on the gown, to ensure that the size fit. Here's my gown.

Then, something happened. Mama was talking to the person halfway, and then she suddenly started turning red in the eyes. No need to ask her why; I understood. It waas tears of mixed emotions. It's tears that only true love and true happiness can bring.

Tears because of the pain and sweat that she had put in to bring me up. (In case you didn't know, she was the one and only one who painstakingly brought me up since I was one month old).

Tears because of finally seeing me graduating, and thinking that she had not wasted all her time afterall.

Tears because in spite of her own tough life, she finally managed to see someone through to success. You see, she is a divorcee, and she single-handedly brought up two boys on her own, because the jerk of a husband did her wrong, and also didn't give her any alimony, despite getting a court order to. You can imagine, in the 80s, having to bring up two child on your own, having to work, feed, bring up, educate two very young children.

When I saw it, it was a really really heart wrenching moment, and it took all the strength in me not to start crying. All I could do was to jokingly push it aside, and ask her "what happened to you?", which resulted in her crying even harder..

I really felt the pain inside, and I pushed the tears aside till now. I am sitting in front of my laptop, tears dripping down my cheeks as I am typing this out now...

Pain because I know that she is one of the people in my life who made it such a blessing to be me; she would sacrifice everything for me and my brother. She really loved me with all her heart. Even now, whenever anyone asks her which of her 4 grandchildren she loves the most, she would adoringly say "none. The only two I really love are Xuefen (that's me), and Long Chang (that's my brother)".

Pain because she is always so proud of us. She will always say to relatives, or for that matter, anyone who would listen, "I also don't know why Xuefen study so hard. You know, she really very good one leh. ALl the thick thick books also she can read..." And I would blush. But I know it's because she is very proud of us...

Pain because I know how hard I worked so that she would be able to see me wear the graduation gown. Finally. I know how much she wanted to see us succeed. And finally, I made her wish come true. The next one is to get married, and I want my children to know, and love her too.

Pain because after working so hard to bring up her two sons, she is not getting the treatment that she deserves. All mothers want to spend as much time with their kids as possible. For one, the two kids do not give her any money at all every month, on the reasoning that they have their own family and children to take care of. And she doesn't even complain. It angers me everytime when the grandchildren do not give her the amount of respect that she deserves. I would scold them when I see any form of disrespect. I hate it!

Pain because it hurts me when she would always say "I don't want to live that long ah. It's about time for me to go already. Live for so long also no use". She is constantly having conflicts with her daughter-in-law, though I really don't know why...And I will always tell her to stop being stupid (when what I really mean is for her to live as long as possible, healthily.).. I really don't know what I would do should I lose her. It really hurts to even think and contemplate it...

Pain because I know that she will have to leave me sooner or later. I am hoping later. Later than later. Later...Later...Please, God. I know I will be devastated...it's an unimaginable pain...

She was always there to dole out lots of good advice along my growing up days, always making sure that I do not come to any harm. Whenever I complain about anywhere not feeling well, she would always fuss over me. I remember, when I was younger, I used to fall sick quite often. And whenever I have a fever, she would, together with my parents, stay up all night to take care of me...

During my Primary School days, she would be the one to ferry me to and from school whenever I have extra activities in school. Carrying my younger brother, rain or shine, she would never fail to make it there. That's why I said that I am blessed. Not only was I not made to go back on my own (even though I hated it then), I also have a loving aunt who would take all the care in the world to bring me up. For that, I am truly indebted to her for the rest of my life.

Much as I don't say it, I really love her...If anyone asks me if PURE, unadulterated love exists, I would say yes. It takes the form of the angel sent to me from above, MAMA.

Somebody please stop the tears from flowing. It feels really sour in the heart. No one understands the pain... Really sour....Damn, I need a really good concealer tomorrow..

Just realised that the photos I have taken with my dearest mama are far and few...maybe it's because I am a girl, and pale in comparison to kelvin...drats.

Here's the surprise...

I told all of you in the previous entry, that there would be a surprise coming up in the next entry..

Well, I spent all the time scanning all the photos into my computer...

Here's how it all started.

Mummy: You know hor, some of the ah yen (vivy) photo really look like you last time leh.

Me: Is it? Eh, take out all the photos and see leh...

Mummy: (took out all the albums). There, you see this one, really look like ah yen hor?


Me: Yah hor. Ok. Let me scan all of them, and then put up on the blog.

Haha. And so, I started looking at all the baby photos, and also put them up on the blog. What you see here is only a fraction of what I have in all the albums. SOme of the photos were realy tacky man... hee..

YOu see, since I was young, mummy taught me that when I took photo, I had to open my eyes wide. Hence, you can see that my eyes are really wide open in the photos...

And, while scanning I also thought of another advantage; that I wasn't doing this for the sake of it... haha. It will make the preparation for my wedding montage next year a much easier job.. hee hee. *blush*...

Those of you who think that the two girls in these photos look alike, wriggle your toes..

I know I am wriggling my toes.. ha ha

That's me, with my brother, and in my school uniform..

aaahhh.... i can't hear!!

this was way young.. see how fat i was? haha... never really got rid of the fats..

papa and I

papa and I again. This time, daddy sported the PCK hair.. haha. I still think it's funny.

I hope all of you are watching out for the eyes. Just see..it's standard. I just look as though I am petrified and shocked.. haha

prety scenic... very pretty hor?

see? the eyes again...

Mummy and I

I guess this was during CNY>.... but seriously, I have no idea.;. haha

bougainvillea. Once again, the eyes...they never fail. hee.

Me with the crooked ponytails.. haha

This was taken during my parents' 20th wedding anniversary. That was 10 years ago. Next year is the 30th.. wow...


There are more to come. Meanwhile, I am too sleepy to go on...

*yawn*... good night!! =)

Keep watch here!!!

Something VERY VERY EXCITING is coming up!! Stay watching!!! =)

My Ah Ma's 78th birthday...

Last Friday, after checking out from Snetosa, Da and I went home to throw our heavy bags at home, and then left to go to Spring Court to celebrate my grandma's 78th birthday. 78! can you believe it? I just can't imagine myself living for that long a period of time.. hee hee..

We had dinner at Spring Court, located just opposite Chinatown Point. It is beside the Hotel 81 at CHinatown. Haha. It's this 4 storey building...and we were given a room at the fourth floor, in a VIP room... called "Peony".

Haha. As usual, I like visiting toilets. This toilet was really interesting. It's open spaced... and very quaint and old-fashioned..but pretty...

There. It's unisex..haha

That's our VIP room. There was even Karaoke! hee hee...(though i must add in all fairness that it's damn antique, and S....L.....O......W)

The teapot.. =p

Here's the main highlights. This photo features ah-ma's kids and their spouses. That's ah-ma right in the middle, wearing blue. She looks really frail, and it sort of breaks my heart to see her....

Here's all the grandchildren...

This is the closer one. It's the same as the photo up there, but split into two groups...This is the first group...

And the second...

~~Happy Birthday!!! ~~

2D1N stay @ Shangri-La Sentosa

Last Thursday, Da and I went for a 2D 1N stay at the Rasa Sentosa, at, err...Sentosa. Duh!

Set off at around 12:30 from my place, because the check-in time was around 3.00. We took the train to Harbour Front MRT station, and then took a free shuttle in to Sentosa.

Da while waiting for the free shuttle to arrive.. This is a Harbour Front Towers..

Here's upon our arrival at Sentosa. We were all feeling bubbly and bright. The sun was shining brightly, and we were all in a good mood...

Here's the hotel as seen from the lobby..

The view of the pool from the hotel lobby.

Then, we were told by the person at the reception, that our rooms were not ready yet. And that we would not be able to check in until it was ready. And so, Da and I waited. We strolled to the beach for a walk...

And waited...And waited...

Until I was really pissed off. We literally saw the sun get hidden by the clouds, and the sky darkening by the minute. I decided that we have had enough, and we went over to the reception again. She said that she was sorry, but the room was not ready...yet. They would cal us when it was.

Then I was thinking to myself...at this rate of waiting, I will check in at 5, and then check out at 12 the next day?! WTF!?

Well, seeing that things weren't right with us, the girl decided to offer us a "complimentary" fruit punch from the hotel cafe.. And so, we took it, of course!

View from the cafe.

Err...even the bird trotted into the cafe, and walked all over the place.. haha.

After this, Da decided not to let this incident spoil our day. Know what he did? He went over to the counter, and demanded that we have a later check out time the next day, given that we have wasted so much time the first day waiting for the freaking room. And guess what! The person agreed!

Now that's what i call service!

After that, she arranged for us to leave our bags at the bell counter, and that we could go to the pool for a swim first, while waiting for our room to be ready. And so we did.

After that, got to our room, finally....at around 5. They had to compensate us by giving us a high floor..haha. 10th, 1010. Not bad...

It was not very big, but I thought it was quite cute. The bathrooom and the room was linked by an open window... i like.. The bathtub is just by the window as you can see..But the tub was not very big as well.. haha

There was this complimentary platter, with some nonya kueh, and nuts. Really quite good, given that I was famished at that time..

More photo taking..

This is the spa that we went to the second day. Called Rasa Spa. Nice place; though I have to admit that my knowledge about spas is next to none. haha. Virgin trip to the spa... and I chose to give it to Sentosa.

Well, there was a complimentary bottle of wine as well, and as you can see, we are not very expert at drinking as well, seeing that da didn't even manage to open the bottle.. haha. IT was SOOOOOO...ultimately embarassing. After struggling for 20 minutes, he decided that he had enough, and called the counter to ask for assistance.

After 5 minutes, someone came up to help us open the bottle of wine. haha. Ridiculous...

Our late night supper. Chicken and bacon sandwich. Not bad... but very ex. That's why i didn't have anything. sigh. That's the thing about Singapore. Everything is expensive. Everything.

The next morning.. Woke up bright and early for breakfast at the cafe. Thoroughly enjoyed it! I loved the variety, and everything. Really, really nice... yumm!!!

After breakfast, we went back to the room to change, and then proceeded to swim for a little while, and then went to the spa for our treatment. I wanted to do the body massage, but then I had a sunburn from the previous day out to Sentosa with the girls, and therefore could not take the torture to the back. I had a facial instead.

I swear i will go for another spa treatment soon... =P

parting shot.

Haha. I couldn't bear to leave.