Men...

Sigh. What can I say... Men. You hate them, you love them. I love him too, but I really can't take it. It drives me up the wall... Just when I thought the wound has healed, it got rubbed on the sore bit again...and I had to rub it in...and now I feel even more sore than every.

What does it say when all da could say (after reading my blog) was "I know it's wrong. I know. I know it's not right. I don't feel right also". As if just by saying that he doesn't feel good about it, will me me feel better.

ARRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And he's now in Batam with his Japanese FEMALE colleague (for work. I know, I am working up again), and they have just got back to mainland SIngapore. And he tells me that he is not driving her home... Like I believe it. A guy like him? Not drive a female colleague home? So late at night? PHOOEY! As if! And how do I know it? Because I called him, and he "pretended" that his phone reception was bad, as if not wanting me to hear her presence in the car, or whatever. Then he said he would call me back, but nope! no call forthcoming... Nope!

Help me! I really don't want to be this bitch, but I really can't help it.

Ouch, I feel my heart breaking....

God grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference.

Sheesh. Sheesh. Sheesh. What the F***.

I am getting married!!

Hi people, thank you soooo... much for your kindwords and thoughts. (much as I asked explicitly for no comments.. haha) I feel so much better after letting it out.. I just needed an outlet...for expression. And I thank God for the blog. It is definitely a good way of letting out steam...

Anyway, I am getting registered on 28 August 2007...my BIRD day!! =)

I know, I have been telling all of you people that I will be doing it on the same day as the wedding, but some complications have arisen that led to this decision of having our ROM first prior to the wedding date... just to inform you guys!!

I am getting married!! =)

It's My Prerogative...

Current Feeling: Depressed. Don't F*** With me...

This is a silly blog entry. Please do not comment on anything about this entry. I just need an outlet...


Sigh. WHy doesn't he get it? Why??!! Sometimes, I just want to tear my hair out.

Sometimes, it's good that da converses well with others, or what we might like to call, he has "ren yuan"...

But I don't like it when people get too close to him...especially the girls. It already makes me uncomfortable when he switched over to the sales department.. the nature of his job puts him inevitably in contact with a lot of people, and of course, a lot of women...not to mention the least.

Today was da's colleague's wedding. I feel happy for them. He got da to help be his "brother", part of the entourage to help him in the wedding and making sure that the wedding goes on smoothly... Well, of course, da, being da, will always be on the ball and making sure everything is done to the best of his abilities... That's one thing I love him for...

Then I was invited to the dinner... I went, of course. There, I finally got to meet most of da's colleagues, whom he has been telling me about all the time, and describing them to me. Finally I got to put faces to the names of these people...

During the dinner, we were sitting with his colleagues (duh...), and I realised that the people all loved da. He was apparently the "Mr Nice Guy a.k.a Mr. Gentleman, a.k.a Mr. COnsiderate, a.k.a. Mr Tender... blah blah blah..

Of course, I'm supposed to be glad that I have picked such a guy to marry. Do not have any doubts about it that I AM glad that he is my husband to be. I just don't like it that he seeems to be liked by so many people....By people, I actually mean "girls".

As a girl, I know that I would naturally like to talk to guys who are such gentle creatures, who take care of people, who would go all the way for me and stuff. Naturally, I would feel more inclined to be friends with such people. WHich is fine by me, btw.

What I don't like is the fact that some of the girls will get physical with da. At the end of the dinner, as I came out the toilet, I saw this colleague of his bid farewell to him, and then I saw her touch da in his tummy. I know it was a friednly gesture, but I can't get it out of my mind. And it disturbs me that da wasn't bothered by it. I don't want to know if things are worse when I'm not around.. and I don't want to know.

I know...I am petty.. I am...whatever. It's my prerogative. I have every right to be.

I don't like people touching him. I really can't imagine letting guys touch me..even thought it's juts for fun.

AND THE WORST THING IS, da doesn't get it. The whole way home, I was blatantly displeased, but it was a small issue, and I didn't want to bring it up. Anyway, it would be impossible to bring the cocnern across to da. He simply would not get it. He never understands what I'm angry or upset about. I asked him. "Very nice hor? Mr. Nice Guy, Mr. Considerate".

Initially, he laughed it off, not udnerstanding the pain in my voice.

Then when he realised that I was visibly upset, he said "I don't understand what's so upsetting about it. SHouldn't you be happy that people are saying those things about me?"

I opened my mouth to try to get my point across, but ultimately give up. I knew that he wouldn't understand. He also would not see what's wrong with having his FEMALE colleague touch him; or rather. "punch" him when she said goodbye... He wouldn't. He would just call me oversensitive, as usual. He would then say cynical things like "So what you want me to do? next time tell them not to call me or talk to me is it?" And I know I would lose... coz I am always portrayed as the one in the wrong. No one understands the insecurities... and he doesn't try to allay the fears deep within me...

I give up. Guess I wouldjust wallow in self pity. I don't like it. And it's my prerogative to speak up.

*sob*. I'm crying, and he is snoring soundly in bed... whatever.

With these, I wed Thee...=)

This whole holiday has been mad...blissfully so I must say... =)

Tomorrow, we will be going for our wedding photo shoot... And today I just took out the wedding bands for a closer and better look...I think they're simple..and pretty...Although I must say that poor guys...they always don't have the diamonds. Da wanted to get one with diamonds in the first place, but then after trying it on, we decided that it looked weird, and so we decided to stay with the more "traditional" one, with only the ladies' one geting the diamond... =)We always get the better end of the deal...

Anyway, here are the bands with the wedding pillow...

Pretty...

With these, I wed thee... Hee hee..or whatever it says... I dunno..
Here's us with the bands on, and with our wedding bears... I think there are too many veins on my hands... yucks... Must photoshop it away..haha...

Our Preparation Thus Far

Would You Be There

Are we women the only species of homosapiens who actually have emotions and are easily moved to tears? Are we the only ones who actually listen to love songs and look into the lyrics for the meaning and emotions behind?

I love this song.. For those of you who watched the 9p.m show previously, you would be familiar with this song that was constantly played over the background. DIdn't really like the vocals of this guy, but I loved the lyrics of the song... I guess it's the greatest promise a man can give to his love... =)

~Redwan Ali~
Would You be There

If i were blue, would you be there for me,

And whisper in my ears "That's ok"

Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight?

And say you love me one more time

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,

And touch my lips with tender loving care

Would you die for me?

Would you run with me?

And never look back...?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?

Would you swear that your love is always true?

Would you say that you'll always be the one,

to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?

Would you swear that your love is always true?

Would you say that you'll always be the one,

to take my breath away?

Would you be there…

If I'm away, would you still think of me?

And wished that you could hold me now

Would you die for me,

would you run with me,

All the way…

**Would you be there to love to be with me?

Would you swear that your love is always true?

Would you say that you'll always be the one,

to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight?

Would you swear that your love is always true?

Would you say that you'll always be there

To kiss my pain away?**

(Repeat **)

Would you be there...for me?

Carl's Junior

Yesterday, I met up with Yen Ru for lunch, and also a pedicure session. We met up at Plaza Sing for lunch first. I thought I wanted to try Carl's Junior, because it's been in SIngapore for so long already, and I have never ever tried it... =)

(Cheryl is probably going to kill me... Here she is trying to help me, and there I am ruining everything for myself.. haha)

I felt like such a suaku there. Everything also I want to know what it is, EVerything also I dunno what it's for... haha. Luckily Ru was there to help.... hee hee...

Anyway, I got this bacon crispy chicken burger thinge.. One thing I realised about the place, I felt that everything was quite expensive... Of course, when I told da what I had, he said "Why you go CArl's Junior and eat chicken burger? I thought they are famous for their beef burgers one?"

Anyway, back to the topic. Iit was $7.90 for the freaking burger! Big as it was, it was still not worth the price...

Here's what we had. I ordered the burger only, and Ru ordered the meal so that we could share.. The iced tea there was so cool. They had their own iced tea, where you could add your own lemon slices and syrup... I like! *slurp* Ru had this Portobello mushroom burger... IT looked delicious.. maybe next time i'll try it.. =)

The fries are really good.. DId I mention sinful as well? IT's laid with cheese and those mexican thingee that was found in Tacos from TAco Bell last time. I like it...

Well, here's my burger..

And a close up mug shot of the sinner... Hee.. My burger..

*Sin City*

I hurt my back...

While at the gym last Saturday for my weekly work out, I felt a sharp pain in my lower back. The type of pain that simply shot up my spine. It scared the hell out of me...
Left the class, called da and told him to come pick me up to go see a doctor... sigh.

Dr Chan told me that it was probably that I tore a ligament in the back muscles... sigh. What's new? It's not the first time it had happened.. and he gave me an INJECTION!!! BOOHOO!!! =(

Then after that, went to dad's place to pick mama and Shuxian up before we went shopping... (Women are like that. Their treshold for pain may be low, but shopping is therapeutic. Guys, get it in your numbskulls. Shopping is the miracle pill for curing ANYTHING. and i mean anything. I would go shopping even if I broke my back. Haha. Ok. Maybe that was a little over, but you get my meaning.)

Faced lots of sarcasm again. Especially from mama. She was always against my visiting the gym. Everytime I wanted to visit the gym, she would say "also dunno why you go. Jump here, jump there very good meh? You don't know what's injured inside you ah."

Well, she had a field daya shooting sarcasic remarks at me like "haa. See lah, I told you already right? DOn't listen. Next time better don't go anymore ahhhhhh......"

SHeesh. Aunties. What can I say.

Shifting of the Limelight... Just for a While... =)

Dear readers, These few latest entries have all been about the narcissitic me, me and more me.. Today, i have decided o be magnanimous and shift the focus point, just for a little while, and let you all into the sneak peak of my HUSBAND..and his suit.. haha...You all should feel honoured. It's not every wedding that you get to see the full range of clothings before the wedding day itself.. =)

After looking at the suits that the wedding shop provides, Da decided that he was not at all satisfied with their suits at all. Amidst all the other complaints, I remember hearing this grumble.. "Women are so lucky one. They got so many types to choose. Long lah, short lah, fat lah, thin lah, high collar lah, what halter lah, what tube lah, what.. aiyah. Then men hor, nothing one. It's either black suit, grey suit, or Horlick suit. We men all look the same in the wedding photos. WHy so boring one??? Tsk Tsk Tsk..." Haha

As you can see, you can probably guess the reason behind da's dissatisfaction with the suits.. haha.. His arms are long (just like his brothers at the zoo.. You know, the Primates section..)

See how weird and comical it looks? Haha..

Those who know "Fei Yu Qing".. should know.. But I guess this is "Fei (fat) Yu Qing"... Hahhaahahahahahah

Hahahahahhhahahahahahahah haha haha ah a haha

hahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahah (rolls on floor and laugh...) So, granted, went to let Da get his suit tailor made lah. It cost a whopping $650! SHeesh... But after we saw the final product, guess we were satisfied with it lah.. .

Here's the tailor taking more measurements for the final alterations... Da looks serious.. I like a man who's serious.. *drools*...

Haha.. Here's Da trying on the suit last night.. See that thing that he's wearing in place of a tie? I dun really know how they spell that stoopid thing. But i know that it's pronounced something like "crovet" or something like that. Looks quite silly, I thought.. =) Then he put on his Imperial vest. Haha. DOn't you think he looks like a bartender? A charming one at that.. haha.. I don't know about you, but I was not very satisfied with the vest. I thought the tailor should have at least tried to make the two sides of the vest more or less the same height, so that it looks better. Now it looks uneven.. Is it just me? =O
Never mind, I still have a dashing hubby in the end... =) Love you baby!!

Our Wedding Bears...

Last Weekend, Da and I went shopping for things for our wedding.. It's like this, and I guess this is the part that I like. SHopping... Hee..

We got bears for our wedding again. Over the years, I have seen these bears over the counter, and I always ask Da "when do you think it will be our turn to get these?"

Finally, my question has been answered... Tatty Teddy.. Or as I like to call them "xiong" (chinese for bear)

I think they are simply adorable... Doncha think so? These 2 are not the first of the lot.. LOok down for my "collection"...

The biggest one on the right was the first Xiong I have ever owned.. It came from Da 6 years ago, when I first started working after I graduated from TP in Legal STudies. I started working at a law firm, and was feeling very depressed on the first day at work. Then the next thing I knew, when I stepped out from the building, I saw Da standing there with Xiong. My tears just couldn't be contained.. hee hee... I started crying.. It was just so sweet of him...

The other smaller one was a gift from him because I was just acting spoilt.. I don't remember when it was, but it was not for any occasion, if I remember correctly.. .

Thought that's the end? Nope! There's more!

Starting from the left, the one with the red stuff on it that looks like it got chicken pox, I got it for Valentines' Day one year.. really can't remember when... It's actually full of kisses... he hee

The other one holding the "P" was for one of my birthdays. Again, I don't remember when.. (hmm..what does it say about my getting of bears for birthdays and V. Days? Haha)

Ahh.. The other one I remember very clearly.. The one holding the "congratulations" sign? That's for when I got my driving license.. 25 November 2002... Hee hee..

Finally, the last one that said " i Love you" was also given for nothing.. I remember a time when I was spoilt rotten. I got whatever I asked for..Sigh.. Memories... =)

Boys are smelly...

Yup! Or so says my new T-Shirt..from David & Goliath.. Love it. It's so cute.. And all the messages on this series of tees are poking fun at the inferior gender... hee hee.. I wanted one that said "Boys eat their booger when they think no one is watching". But it didn't come in my size.. hee hee.. I like.. !! =)

A sneak peek into our wedding venue...

Yesterday, after visiting the gym for my Saturday workout, Da and I decided to visit the Orchid Country Club to look at the venues where we can take our wedding photos. Just to recky the place.

WHen we got there, I was shocked to see how many weddings were going to be held there last night. 3! There were 3 weddings going on at the same time.

Anyway, although we didn't make any prior arrangements with Rendall, our co-ordinator, he still managed to meet up with us to answer our queries. I think his service is quite good.

Anyway, here's he grand staircase leading up to our grand ballroom... nice?

The grand staircase. There was a wedding going on last night, so we asked Rendall if we could go up to take a look at the decor. He was very accomodating, and said yes.
Here's the view of the pool, where we can take our photos.
The golf course as the backdrop

Of course, this is one of the place offered to take our photos as well. I like the view...

The view
We were also offered this place for the wedding photo shoot. The pavilion there should make quite a a nice setting, don't you think?
Well, here are the stars of the wedding...
While we were there, there was a malay wedding in the process. Look at the decor! Isn't it simply awe inspiring?

Haha. I just got these stuff to hang on m handphone. Aren't they cute? Sesame street characters.. You can see Big Bird, Elmo and cookie monster. This was taken while in the lift...

Here's one of the photography venues. I like the clock tower in the backdrop...
Here's the decor for the Malay wedding that took place yesterday. IT was held below the grand staircase, at the area leading out to the garden. I thougth it looked fabulous. Loved the decor, loved the scents of the food, and loved the setting. Really great.
Here's the walk in to the stage. As you can see from the picture, you can get an estimate of how far it is... from the back to the front. *hums~ It's a long, long journey...*

Here's the decor in the grand ballroom. My co-ordinator said that prior to our wedding, we could choose which flowers we wanted on the aisles... really nice !!! =)
Here's a glimpse of the master tables. You know, the ones where the parents of the bride and groom sit. I didn't like the decor very much. The colour theme was not to my liking. Thank goodness we had a choice..
Last night, the wedding couple had their solemnization ceremony prior to the wedding dinner. They chose to hold it in the grand ballroom.
One of the chandeliers in the ballroom.

Say WAAAAA...

This Morning, I made breakfast... BREAKFAST!!! Can anyone believe that? Can you all say "Waaaahhhhhh..."haha

I know...Judging from the picture, it doesn't look half as bad, does it? Hee hee... All done by myself. From the heating of the muffins, to the grilling of the brockwurst, to the scrambled eggs..to the ham...

Granted, all these have been bought off the shelf...but still..Give me some credit man!! =)

This is mine.. Thought it looked pretty much like a face yah? haha

Horror Story of the Century

Alright..Maybe a little exaggerated...How about Horror Story of the Week?

Now...here's a warning: This following entry is NOT for the faint hearted. If you faint at the though of gruesome things...skip this entry. However, if you think you are strong enough, read on.




Here's the story...

Hands up, those of you who have been to the Ikea cafe and restaurant.

I'm sure most of you have.

Now hands up, those of you who would either:

a) Take the glass that they provide (for the plain water) and fill it up with ice and soft drinks.
b) Take the paper cup which people have to pay $1 for, and take a cup of sprite, and because it's colourless, continue to refill it after you have finnished (even though it does not state there that it's refillable... I gues people just lke to assume that since it does not say it's NON-refillable, it's safe to take it to mean that it's refillable...whatever).

Well, you there! You who have not put up your hand... don't lie. Even MEEE...I am guilty of the crime... Alright..granted that I will always tell myself "so what? One more cup only mah..evryone does the same"...TOday, I saw an incident that took the above assumption to a new level.

Da and I went to the Ikea in Tampines...The new mega store...and we ended up having our dinner there. After eating the awesome chicken wings with my hands, it was oily right? So what would a logical person do? Go wash the hands right? Yes. That's what I did (Oh. I feel obliged at this point of the story to pause and tell you people that I ordered coffee today, which was REFILLABLE, because the sign explicitly stated so)

Back where we stopped. I went to the toilet to have my hand washed. The toilet was crowded, so I was not paying particular attention to anyone, not even the person beside me (whom I know for a fact that she was a woman.. duh..)UNTIL I heard her tell her very young daughter who has just come out of the toilet "Quick, girl. Wash your hand". The only reason why it drew my attention was because she was freaking loud. Then that was when I saw it.

Are you ready for this?

She was pouring pepsi from the Ikea paper cup (which of course she paid $1 for), INTO A FREAKING MINERAL WATER BOTTLE!

Now, as if drinking in the toilet was not repulsive enough, she was POURING THE DRINK INTO A MINERAL WATER BOTTTLE!!! (I mean, how the hell can you tahan drinking water in the TOILET? Doesn't she find it disgusting to begin with?)

If you thought that was the end, you can't be more wrong. The next thing she told her daughter nearly made me flip...

SHe said "Girl ah. Quick wash your hand, and take the cup, go out ask papa fill it up again" (handing her daughter the cup)

Sheesh...I am at a loss of words. Really dunno what else to say... As if committing the crime is not bad enough, she had to instigate her daughter to follow in her footsteps...what a great moral lesson. At this age when the girl is still forming her world with what's right and wrong....sigh.

After a long while, she was seen walking out of the toilet with the bottle FILLED TO THE BRIM with pepsi...

Really left me pondering.. How ugly can SIngaporeans get?

Worst, what sort of a girl will her daughter grow up to be?

No wonder they say, what kind of parents breed what kind of child... I really feel sad for her.

Holidays are GREAT!

It is now the June Holidays... It is a really great time to catch up on the work out that I have missed... Since last week, I made it a point to visit the gym every single day. For at least an hour. To attend a class which I enjoy..

I dunno about you people, but I really cannot stand working out at a gym. I prefer to attend dance or toning classes... where you really can have fun.. hee hee..

SO what else have I been doing for these few days? Sure I have work to do. I have got worksheets to set, I have got marking to do...I have also got lessons to plan. But I am just refusing to move my ass and get things done. It is simply a time where I just don't feel like doing anything, except to have fun and play, and eat and sleep, and have fun and work out, and catch up with friends, and also to read...

Since I started teaching last year, I hardly had any time for myself, let alone READ.. Any free time I would just feel like sleeping. The holidays are a good time to catch up on the reading of my Jodi Picoult's novels.. They are really great!! =)

First of the lot...

Among the 7 of us in our "clique" in NIE, we used to debate over which one of us would get hitched and married first.. I used to be THE ONE whom everyone speculated would get married first out of the 7 of us, followed by Azlin...

Well, up till our graduation last May, only myself and Azlin were known to be attached... and so it came as a shock to us when Juvaira told us during an outing last December that she would be getting engaged in January and married in June. Well, no one really expected it, I guess.. she only got to know her husband in November last year...and last night, the bunch of us got invited to her wedding dinner.. haha.. guess no one can predict fate and love..

Her dinner was held at Radin Mas Community Club, at Telok Blangah... quite a nice place.. This first pic shows her entrance into the place.. with the people playing the drums and all to invite her in..

Here's Ju and her husband Naufal walking down the aisle.. Isn't she lovely? I guess it's true that all girls look their best during their wedding... =)

The husband is quite charming too..This was the first time any of us saw him.. These little baskets were given to the guests, with chocolate!!! =)
Well, here's more photos... what's new.. while waiting for Ju to change into her other gown, we could only do what seemed to the only thing that we could do. Talk, and take more photos...

Me with mama... She works in the bookshop i New Town Primary School, the school in which Ju teaches. So, while I attend the dinner as a friend, mama attended the dinner as a colleague in the school.. hee hee..


Hmm... the two of them forever like to act cute... (Ok...fine..granted, they ARE quite cute lah... )

not to mention pretty... Azlin, in green, is also getting married at the end of the year, on 8th December.. CONGRATULATIONS, GIRL!!


Here's Ju in the other gown..
After the dinner, the bunch of us decided to visit West Coast Mac for coffee, and more bitching and talking... and, of course, more photo taking... haha...here's what you get when you have a group of girls with nothing to do, and a camera...

Here's the three of us trying very hard to imitate the women in Dim Sum Dollies.. but in vain, obviously.. haha

Grrr.....wild cats!!
Trying to look "sia lan", but looking constipated instead...

Trying to scrunch my nose up like one of my colleague's nephew, but in vain... WHy is it that babies look so cute when they do these, but we look like shit when we do it?

Here's Soo Wei's rendition of "art". This is Guineviere, and according to Soo Wei, this photo is really well taken..

Here's Joanna...with me as cameo.. can you find me? No, I am not the one in purple behind... No. I am not the wrinkled hand with the gold watch.. Yes. That's my hand. In front of her... Must get a piece of me into as many pics as possible.. hahah..

How's my nostril? Clean?

And so, as I was saying... blah blah blah...

After a cup of finished coffee, I guess all of us were high on adrenaline..
Here's SOo Wei.. I told her that she was getting skinnier each time I saw her, but she refused to share her secret... I will hound you until I get your secret!! HAHA>..